super FRESHH

I slept over at lindsay's house last night. It was fun. :P
And then today I went to John's house for the first time ever.
OH. MY. GOD.

I feel soo terrible. They were asking me if I wanted to eat dinner with them and I was like "oh no thank you xD it's ok" and they kept asking me. BUT APPARENTLY I was being like really rude and I didn't even know it for like the intire time. I was sitting on the couch and like John he was kinda like "we can't eat unless you eat too you know." and I was like "omg so I'm like holding you guys back? Just eat without me i'll be ok!" but noo "it's impolite and like bad manners! c'mon just eat with us" but I didn't know what to do!

I reallyyy didn't want to eat with them. Not because I don't like them or anything, but I'm just not used to eating at a table around people, and everytime I do it's super awkward. I didn't want to make a fool of myself by like not knowing what to do since I never eat at a table in my house! We just get our food, go to our little areas, and eat. we don't really eat together. but omg or not liking the food. I AM THE PICKIEST EATER EVER and I was afraid I wouldn't like his mom's food and then I'd offend them even more because I wouldn't eat it! or like I'd try to eat it but not finish it because I already called my mom and would leave right in the middle of the dinner his mom prepared auuuuugh THE NIGHT WAS GOING JUST FINE BEFORE and then it had to go ahead and end like this RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS ENTIRE FAMILY. So his dad got out shirts or something that he bought and gave them to ha and john (john got like a large it was wayy too big for him lmao) but omg that had to be the most uncomfortable I've ever been in a long time. I bet his family hates me even more than they did before now >> and even.. when I was leaving I whispered to john "oh man I feel terrible" and he told me "yeah you should" which completely shattered me and then he closed the door really fast behind me, maybe slamming it. that.. really sucked..

Other than that it was pretty fun... .___. Like I came into his house, I saw his room (panda sheets! XD), and we played rock band. apparently me bringing my memory card to play windwaker was a complete waste but whatever. I played guitar the entire time and made a complete fool of myself when I chose expert and then like died a million times xD rock bands guitars are so fucked up I swear guitar hero guitars are a lot better ;D I got the hang of the rock band guitar eventually though so it was alright. and his brother kept going so you're molly.. wow.. live and in the flesh... :o and I was like um ok? ^^; After quynh and nina finished their mums and garters quynh came up there and was like I wanna play the drums before I leave so quynh and nina came up, quynh played drums, I played guitar and john sang. oh man it was hilarious hearing john sing and quynh play drums xD

and like.. I was sitting on the couch (when it was just me and john) and I was playing guitar when John slumped over me and took me down on occasion so we kissed and he moved my hair to kiss my neck and we were barefoot and like he was sitting across from me one time and we like interlocked toes xD I dunno I really liked that for some reason. and like when he was sitting with me on the couch he would put his arms around me as I was playingg and there was another time when I was sitting up and he messed with my bra strap like moving it around I was like -blush- x] and we like rubbed our noses together xD asfjm;kl he was like.. looking into my eyes when he pushed me down (not like roughly lmao but slowly) and got ontop of me to kiss me. that just hit me as a woah.

LOL and michael walked back in the room when John was lying down next to me on the couch. He stared like o.o..... and backed off back into the room. I was like lmaooo. oh and his little brother had a "talk" with me when John went down with quynh and nina when they were supposed to leave (but we just ended up sitting on their couch in the most awkward way ever and they offered us water but we were like no thanks and eventually john was like "ok you're drinking something" because his parents wanted us to or something and gave us all one glass of water to share. ric was like that's so lazy xD) but anyway so Michael was like asking me questions and stuff like were you guys really making out in an elevator?" wtf we've never actually been in an elevator together before o.O and eventually he goes "if you tell anyone about this. I have my ways" I wanted to say "little boy you don't scare me xD" but I was just like "oh really?" and he was like yep I know where you live to so if you ever say something about this to anyone I'll get you. so I was like wtf scary. >_o

So yeah.. even though the ending pretty much failed miserably the beginning was pretty good. John told me that it was fine really but I dunno I still have the feeling that they were all mad >> John's mom was like "is that your girlfriend john? If it is i'm sending you off to another state" alksmdoiergh so much for making a good first impression